30 days

i am doing really well with eating and drinking water so far!
my salad was really good! and filling!
I went to the grocery stor on my lunch break and found 100 calorie m&m and milkyways! mmmm!!
I always just need a little sweet fix…like one piece so I think this will help that!
I also purchased 3 magazines that all have headlines like “walk your self thin!! or lose 10 lbs in 2 weeks” kinda thing
I’m gonna read them tonight and let you know what I think!

so tonight when I get home,

I am going to take hopper for a walk–at least around the block depending on how hot it is. I am going to the grocery store…I am having guests over tomorrow night for dinner…fajitas!!
and I’m going to do an ab workout DVD.
I have a few more glasses of water to drink, and turkey burgers to eat!!
I feel good today.
I think I picked a good day!

when I get home is the hard part though.
i’m always tired from work and just want to relax.
I need to keep that modivation going.
I need to kick my ass!!

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well I’ve decided today it the day to start.
I am going to eat right and be sure to be active every day for at least 30 mins EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!!

I am in the process of finding one of those “lose 10 lbs in 2 weeks!!!” kinda things…and sitck to it. but I thougth that I shouldn’t wait until I find one to start being healthy. GOOD ATTITUDE AMANDA!!!!

So, its Monday July 21st.
I weigh: FAT…man i’m not ready to admit that JUST yet.

I can’ tell you that a few things have happened recently that have made me think I might be going crazy…and then i realized “oh no i’m just fat that’s why i’m doing this!”

like…I BOUGHT A PAIR OF MATERNITY PANTS!!! not becasue of any little bundle of joy on it’s way…but more like…becasue it is very unconfortable to wear pants!!! and sit with them!!! OMG!! So my thoughts were…Hey, I’ll buy maternity pants and be soooo comfy (that i’ll never realize how much bigger that will help me become!!)

WHY ON EARTH WHOULD I BUY MATERNITY PANTS!!!! they don’t even look cute!!

oh another thing I did, that I guess is a good thing..is I weighed myself.
it was in the morning before I ate but after I did things in the bathroom if you get my drift….so thats the best time to weigh yourself…true numbers…true scary reality. I hit a number i’ve never EVER in my life been!!!! I cannot believe it!!

I now need to lose 40 lbs for my 30th birthday. that doesn’t sound as cute as 30 by 30!!

i don’t look cute either! I have everything else pretty good in my life! goodplace to live, boyfriend, dogs, family, friends, job etc etc just not happy with how i look.

i watched a video last night of me post sickness, but pre transplant. all i thougth was ” i thought I looked fat there!”
I WISH i looked like that now!!!

so the combo of all of that has made me really ready!
i NEED to do this.
FOR MYSELF.
me.
I need to feel better about myself.
I need to lose weight.
I am concidered out of my BMI
over weight
at risk
fat.

so here goes EVERYTHING!!!!

Breakfast:
1 serving kashi heart healthy cereal
1 serving of 1% milk
1/2 cup watermelon
coffee
water

Lunch:
Salad (lots of lettuce)
topped with
low salt ham, low fat cheese, red onion, butter beans, sugar snap peas, slivered almonds
a few croutons(like 4!) and lite italian dressing
water

Snack:
1 serving quaker oats mini rice cakes in cheddar flavor
1 serving of Sunny D
water

Dinner:
Turkey burger
with swiss cheese and avocado
side of sugar snap peas
water

snack:
skinny cow ice cream sandwich
water

bed:
2 servings of water

EXCERCIZE:
abs with the bender ball(that shit is hard work!!)
walk Hopper

how’s that sound for day 1?

well off to work!
write later with my thoughts of the day!

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